Wow it has been a busy time for me! My last blog was almost 2 months ago, not because I forgot, but because I have been so busy I have barely had time to sit down and focus on one thing. It’s gotten so bad, I am now multi-tasking on 2 computers at the same time.
Let’s see, after the Man-Child’s birthday he got himself a girlfriend. Not long after that there was a pregnancy. That took a week to get used to for me. I didn’t handle it well at first, I have to be honest. I may call him the Man-Child but let’s face facts, he doesn’t live up to that name just yet. So after a week of coming to terms with becoming a grandmother, and having some really deep heart to heart talks with both of them, and deciding I would like to be known as Nana.. they had a miscarriage. It was rough. It stung. I had just gotten used to the whole idea. But I know that everything happens for a reason so I stayed positive. I’ve tried to help them stay positive too. Hopefully some of my advice got through to them as well.
There has also been a lot going on with my bestie and his life that I’ve been helping him with. Paperwork and whatnot. I’ve been teaching him about computer use so he can do all of his stuff on his own. That’s been fun actually. He’s a fast learner. Recently I bought him an acoustic guitar. He even signed up for a class to learn to play it. He has a book and he’s been learning some chords. He dedicates a bit of time everyday to sit and strum away. Sometimes it even sounds like music. ;)
Now for me. I have been attempting to grow my hair out to a longer length. Well after a couple months I have decided this is not going to work. I can’t stand it. It’s in my face, I can’t do a darn thing with it and honestly, the longer it is the more I notice the grey, even when it’s coloured. I will be getting a haircut this weekend. I’ve also been considering new glasses, I’ve had these ones for a while now and I think it’s high time I make a change. So sometime this month, new glasses will be bought.
On the studying front; all GED applications have been submitted. Next writing is the first week of May. A family of graduates will be coming soon to a blog near you! Ok not all of them will be blogging, just me, but I’ll announce how we all did! My current online class is a Justice course from Harvard University on Ethical Reasoning. I am learning a lot about myself during this class. For example, I have some pretty strong opinions on what I think is morally right and wrong and it’s going to take some pretty strong arguments to sway my opinions.
On the personal front; I have worked hard on a daily basis to keep my positive attitude, with the exception of the first couple days after being told about the above mentioned pregnancy. I’m forcing myself to turn away from unhealthy things. I’m devoting more time to what makes me happy and healthy and a LOT less time at worrying, fretting, feeling sad and upset. I’m doing things for me that make ME happy and if it upsets someone, they no longer get to be part of my journey. I have found I no longer have time for people who don’t “get” who I am now and who I am becoming. And the best thing is, I don’t care anymore how they feel about my rejection of them.
I have also started scheduling my life. Now I know, some of you are asking why on earth would I want to put my life on a schedule! Well I’ve not had my life on track enough to be on a schedule in more than a decade. This is a great step for me. I have NEED for a schedule. When I bought my new agenda I actually thought, “I’m going to use this, every day!” And I have! I’m not to the point yet where I have time for bed and time to get up everyday, I still leave that to chance. Though I am now trying to get more sleep so maybe an earlier time to crawl into bed may be in order. And the best part now in my life is that I actually have events and things I go to that I need to schedule around. Not like in an old agenda I came across that I had filled with when certain tv shows were on. I’m so glad I’m not that person anymore.
I mentioned that I am now multi-tasking on 2 computers at the same time now. Well here’s a little plug. Thanks to my wonderful sister Tab and her recommendation, I bought a Nexus 7 Tablet. It has become my new favourite thing in the world. And though I -could- use it as an agenda, I’m still a stickler for pen and paper so my agenda is a book from Mead that supported breast cancer in the sale.
I’ve been doing some thinking lately on old sayings I heard while growing up around my grandmother and I know back then I thought they were some of the craziest things I’d ever heard but now that I’m older and wiser they are starting to make an awful lot of sense.
“It is not the length of life, but the depth of life.” - Ralph Waldo Emerson
“If life were predictable it would cease to be life, and be without flavour.” - Eleanor Roosevelt
I wake up every day and I do actually say to myself, “This is going to be a great day. I will discover something new. I will learn something today.” And so far, life hasn’t let me down in any of those areas. I have great days, I discover new things, and I learn something every day. I don’t sit back and wait for these things to happen either. I actively go after them. I’m not willing anymore to sit back and wait for life to pass, I’m going to make each day mine and I’m going to enjoy it to the fullest. We may all get the same reward at the end but I’m going to make darn sure that every day until I get there is filled with fun and excitement.
What did you do to make your life fun today?